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Ignis Fatuus
03:06
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There's no shame in walking away
I'll just play in the acid rain
Liar liar pants on fire
I'm getting tired of playing this game
You're recluse and of no use
But I guess that's what some people choose
Now would you like to play outside?
I think we should both get away for a while
Come and guide me
Come and guide me
There's still pain in wanting to stay
I'm scared that I'll hurt you again
I want to try but I'm so tired
I wish that things could be the same
You're distressed and I can guess
It's 'cause I caused a nasty mess
I think I'd like to play outside
I'd love to get away for a while
Come and guide me
Come and guide me
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2. |
New
02:46
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Fell asleep in the driveway trying to sober up so I could go home
It doesn't feel like home anymore, but I've got nowhere else to go
So I'll stay outside on a street lit night and I'll talk on the phone til the battery dies
I don't want to sleep yet, I've got a busy mind
I can't stick around, I'm still feeling pretty blue
I think I need some help
I'll move to Saint Paul. I'm in need of something new
To try to fix myself
Still awake at 5am, go to work at 8 for a Job I hate
A neverending cycle, and the money's fake
So I'll sell my shit and buy a new van
Then I'll make new friends and we'll start a band
I don't want to leave yet, I've got an aching heart
I can't stick around, I'm still feeling pretty blue
I think I need some help
I'll move to Saint Paul. I'm in need of something new
To try to fix myself
Have a mental breakdown, take two tabs and sort through all the baggage
Then step outside to a sunlit day and remind myself it's gonna be okay
I think I'm ready to move on
I can't stick around, I'm still feeling pretty blue
I think I need some help
I'll move to Saint Paul. I'm in need of something new
To try to fix myself
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3. |
Brisket
01:37
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I thought I'd be far away from here by now
But I'm not quite so sure of what I'm doing here
It's still all pretty new to me
And I'll smoke cigarettes to curb this aching hunger
I can't take it any longer
And I'll keep getting high all the time to curb the mood swings
Now I'm sad it had to be like this
I'm sad it had to end like this
I'm sad it has to be like this
I'm sad it has to end like this
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4. |
My My My
03:35
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My My My, feels like my life is starting over
The best side effect of getting older, feeling sober
Feeling better than I've ever felt in years
My My My, I can hardly wait til I can hold her
Rest her head upon my shoulder, keep her closer
Never wonder, it's my blessing and I'll never be that guy again
It's my blessing and I'll never be that guy again
My My My, I'm gonna give it the honest try
My baby needs a better life
My My My
My My My, nothing can bring me down from here
My view of life has never been so clear
And it's all thanks to you my dear
Have no fear, it's all real. I couldn't get a better deal
My baby needs a better life, I'm gonna give it the honest try this time
It's my blessing and I'll never be that guy again
No I'll never be that guy again
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5. |
CPR
04:11
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I'm just a man full of fear, please I hope you'll understand
Then you can judge me as I am
Don't tell me things that you think I wouldn't already have known
I'll pack my bags and then I'll go
You had a dream the other night that made you sit right up in bed
Feel that pressure in your head
This is the part where I'll try to mend your fragile broken heart
After I tore your world apart
I'm sorry that I gave you such a hard time
I only pry because I care
I hope one day you'll realize I'm on your side
Maybe then we'll get somewhere
I'm sober now and feeling sick to my stomach as we speak
Just need to make it through the week
Don't lie to me, I can tell. You feel guilty, I feel cheap
I know it makes you want to leave
You never cry in front of me, I'm sure you don't want me to see
How vulnerable you can be
This is the way that I am, I hope one day you'll understand
After all, I'm just a man
I'm sorry that I gave you such a hard time
I only pry because I care
I hope one day you'll realize I'm on your side
Maybe then we'll get somewhere
I'm just a man full of hope that one day I will understand
Til then you'll judge me as I am
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6. |
Mean
05:46
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I'm pretty flexible, watch me shove my foot into my mouth and save some time we'd waste
Why did I say that? Why did I think that was an okay thing to say?
We had another fight. I need some space to clear my narrow mind, and then we'll talk it out
Why the hell am I so mean?
I pushed too far and made a scene
Now she'll go home with somebody new tonight and leave me all alone
And she'll fall in love with somebody else tonight and leave me on my own
It might get easier, but at the moment I feel mean
I'm pretty durable, watch me break my own heart over and over again
Why did I do that? Walked around the room pretending you weren't there. I couldn't look at you
Why the hell am I so mean?
I pushed too far and made a scene
Now she'll go home with somebody new tonight and leave me all alone
And she'll fall in love with somebody else tonight and leave me on my own
It might get easier, but at the moment it's so hard
But this is for the best
And I just need to learn to love myself
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7. |
Womanizer
04:39
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Womanizer, what're you getting out of this?
You'll never find her at the rate that you're going
And you're gonna be all alone
You wanna feel desired. But you're a womanizer
All my thoughts drift back to you
All the simple things we'd do
And I wish it wasn't true
But it's over now so I gotta keep moving on
Womanizer, is it a phase or who you are?
Such a smooth talker, sensitive and vulnerable
Man you look so tired, and you keep on pouring from that empty cup
You want to feel desired, you're just a womanizer
All my thoughts drift back to you
All the simple things we'd do
And I wish it wasn't true
But it's over now so I gotta keep moving
And it hurts to see your face
And I'm haunted by this place
And I miss the way it felt
Maybe someday I can feel it with somebody else
Womanizer, what're you getting out of this?
Man you look so tired, and you keep on pouring from that empty cup
You want to feel desired. But you're a womanizer
All my thoughts drift back to you
All the simple things we'd do
And I wish it wasn't true
But it's over now so I gotta keep moving on
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8. |
Two Jobs
05:25
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Late nights coming home to find you in your bed
Long talks about your day, just want to make sure you're okay
Wondering if I should stay with you tonight, or should I go so I can write
Hold you close and feel the warmth in your chest
Keeping promises I made to you before, but I think I closed that door
I'll do my best to try to focus on myself and improve my mental health
A hefty weight and a full plate that takes up most of my time
And old mistakes that come up more than I'd prefer in my mind
It's okay, just wish that I could take you out one of these nights
Spend a day reading up on brains and writing anatomy essays
Wish I could tell you more that I love you
But tomorrow is a new day
Go to sleep and have sweet dreams
Tomorrow's gonna be a good day
A better day for you and me
Trying to focus on priorities I wish I didn't have
You'll work two jobs and earn enough to buy a car and pay the rent
I'll learn in time that I am good enough for you in your eyes
Reciprocate the love you gave to me I never realized
But tomorrow is a new day
Go to sleep and have sweet dreams
Tomorrow's gonna be a good day
A better day for you and me
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9. |
Funk E Boi
03:02
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Oh shit, I didn't think it'd hurt so much this time
I guess I'll never learn
I tried getting drunk last night, but then I fell asleep
Maybe I was better off so no one had to deal with me
It's never been intentional
I'm just a slut for the attention
But I won't let things go too far
Maybe I'm impossible
But is it possible that I have just been wasting all your time?
Oh shit, another one just left again
I'm so bad at keeping friends
I'm not good with boundaries
Are we just hanging out?
All the signals have been blurred
And I'm acting like a jerk
It's never been intentional
I'm just a slut for the attention
But I won't let things go too far
Maybe I'm impossible
But is it possible that I have just been wasting all your time?
You're so full of shit
What do you want from me?
All you've done is fucked my head
And I don't even understand what I did wrong
You're such an asshole and I want you gone
If it's unintentional then why do you still do it?
You're so predictable, I even saw this coming
That's what I get for ignoring all the red flags in my face
You're not impossible, but it feels very probable that you have just been wasting all my time
Get the fuck out of my life
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10. |
Don't Overthink It
02:30
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I've got a question, answer honestly
"Do you really see this going anywhere?"
Then I said, "I don't know."
And you'll roll your eyes and say I never know
If it feels good just do it
Don't Overthink it baby, it's already over
I still have my plans to go
Move to the city, try to start it all again
I know the look that's in your eye
I used to have that look once upon a time
I may not love you, but I still really like you
I'm a fool, and I appreciate you more
And it feels good so I'll just do it
Don't Overthink it baby, I'm already gone
I still have my plans to go
Move to the city try to start it all again
I still have my plans to go
If it feels good just do it
Don't Overthink it baby, I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
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11. |
How to Atone
03:24
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It's getting dark. I have the comfort of a street light while I sit upon this curb deep in thought
And I'll admit that I am due to make some changes before I get too old and it becomes who I am
But I'm afraid I still can't make a full commitment or trust myself to be more honest
This is how to Atone for the things you did wrong
The mistakes you made to the ones you love
This is how to move on and forgive yourself
It's getting dark in my mind once again, and I know I shouldn't be alone
And I'll admit I'm doing better than I have been, but there are times when it's still too much and I need a break
I'm so afraid I'll never find that love again, and when I do I still won't deserve it
This is how to Atone for the things you did wrong
The mistakes you made to the ones you love
This is how to move on and forgive yourself
It's getting dark, I'll shut my eyes and hope a brighter day will come
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12. |
Laid
03:15
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We were still stuck in the past
Getting over all the shit that we went through
And how it all lead me to you
I have spent too much time in bed
And the imprint I left is my best friend
Who never left and gives me space when I need rest
And this is who I am
I'm not tryna get laid tonight
I hope it doesn't detract from the rhythm we have
And this is where I stand
I just wanna fall in love tonight
But I got a good feeling that I probably won't
I was waiting for you to call
To talk about the things we left unsaid
Before we get too serious
And I really just needed a friend
Healing is a lonely cold and harrowed road
That seems like it will never end
And this is who I am
I'm not tryna get laid tonight
I hope it doesn't detract from the rhythm we have
And this is where I stand
I just wanna fall in love tonight
But I've got a good feeling that I probably won't
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I was scared, under the covers on the bed
You weren't there anymore
So I scrolled through all our old photos on my phone I should delete
And I miss your warmth, the morning's never been so cold
I couldn't sleep. I don't want to sleep alone
I took some time to get acquainted with my inner child
It felt good to cry
And I know because you told me so
I won't waste more of your time
It was a big part of my life
I tried calling, but I felt my throat close up
I still miss you, but I think I fucked this up enough
How am I going to fill this hole?
No one loves me like you do
You were numb, holding out for what was left of our love
I feel so dumb
And I felt shame for all the things I did to you
I know it can't ever be the same
And I've never been so scared to fall in love again
I'll run away. Hide away
I tried calling, but I felt my throat close up
I still miss you, but I think I fucked this up enough
How am I going to fill this hole?
No one loves me like you do
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14. |
Complicated/Bored
03:49
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I have doubts that hold me back from moving forward
I'm not as easy as you think
I'm complicated and I'm bored
I'm sorry that I didn't feel the same as you did
But I swear the things I felt weren't fake
It wasn't wrong
We didn't make a big mistake that went too far
And moving on isn't as easy as writing a song
I have fears that keep me locked inside this room
I'm not as smart as you might think
I talk too loud so no one knows
Sorry that I couldn't love you the right way
Maybe someday I can change
It wasn't wrong
We didn't make a big mistake that went too far
And moving on isn't as easy as writing a song
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15. |
Hey, What's New?
03:30
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Gonna see my old friend
I can't remember how long it's been
So much has changed, we've grown so much
It's getting harder to keep in touch
But I'd like to try, because it's so hard to make new friends in our busy lives
It's good to see you again
We're getting married, starting families
Graduating and paying debts
Life goes on but I'm missing you
If I've got time I'll drop a line and say, "oh hey, what's new?"
Oh hey, what's new?
Did you buy a home or do you still rent?
Your brand new car got a nasty dent
It's never easy, we know it's true
I'm always glad when I get a chance to catch up with you
We'll meet at a bar and talk for hours, then realize how we've come so far
And are you happy? Do you feel fine?
Things will get better, it's a matter of time
All those struggles you've been through
Helped you grow into a better you
I'm so glad you came
Circumstances make it hard on a normal day
It's good to see you again
We're getting married, starting families
Graduating and paying debts
Life goes on but I'm missing you
If I've got time I'll drop a line and say, "oh hey, what's new?"
Oh hey, what's new?
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